The News ...

I am currently 25 weeks pregnant and at 20 weeks I went in for the usual scan to make sure the baby is growing as it's suppose to and that everything is "normal" With my last two pregnancies we also found out the sex at this time but with this being our last we wanted to try to keep it a surprise. The scan went great! so we thought....
4 days later I went for regular OB appointment to find out the ultrasound came out "abnormal" they couldn't see the babies Great arteries cross and they needed to see that in order for it to be a passing ultrasound.    Okay I thought no biggie the babe wasn't in a good position anyways and the tech had trouble seeing the heart so I thought. Plus this stuff happens to "other people" not us?!
2 Fetal echo scans later... and 2 meetings with pediatric cardiologists my world stopped.
At that point it was best for us to find out the sex of our precious 3rd baby... A BOY! over the moon excited! Tripp is going to have a brother and Everly-Rose another brother and a big sister! However hearing the diagnosis of the our newest son was awful. He has Transposition of the great arteries, A large VSD ( hole in the heart)  Double Outlet right ventricle and a small aorta that is narrowing. As the Pedi Cardio is telling us everything with the pictures she drew my eyes start to well.. my body shake and my husband in silence.. I can no longer understand a word that she is telling me ... all I hear is... critically ill...newborn open heart surgery in order to survive ... and then the the acid on the burn... " we can't have you deliver in Ottawa this is too severe of a case you'll need to have your baby in Toronto and the operation will be done at sick kids" WHAT? but this is my home! this is the place I feel safe and the place I feel familiar with and now my baby is going to be in the hospital for a length of time I'm still unsure of.. our family will be broken up at times.... not what I wanted to hear but I know our Son will get the best care at sick kids.. it's just hard. When I heard her say Toronto .. it really sank in how serious this was and the water works flowed.
I know I need to be strong for my unborn child and my husband and kids but this is horrible... you never really realize how strong you are until you have to be.. and this is what I'm hoping will kick in for me when I deliver our sick son.
I go down to Toronto to meet the doctors the end of September that will save our son and the doctors that will deliver him. All the appointments take the entire day from 8am til 6pm and I will have to stay 2 nights.. It breaks my heart to be away from my kids but they can't come and my hubby has to work as we literally just get back from our family vacation to Disney World.
So this is where we are right now.. frozen .. until I get more information that will bring more questions..