Well it's official my second son will be born Nov 16 @ 9 am!
I'm on the train heading back home as and I still feel overwhelmed tons of info that I'm still processing. 8 hours of appointments, and I still couldnt meet everyone I apparently need to so I'm going back in six weeks.... Ugh
My sweet baby boy will have his open heart surgery at around 5 days old. And a Medicine called prostoglandins will be given to him in an iv (these drugs will keep him alive until he is ready for surgery) He also might need a surgery a day after birth to help the mixing of the blood until his open heart surgery. He is going to be transferred to sick kids after birth and daddy will go with him while I'm stuck at the other hospital, that's going to be tough they said they will bring me over to see him the next day.... I hate that he's mine and we need each other but it's because I have to have a csection.
Everyone at sick kids was so nice and my mum and I got a tour of the areas we will be in. I got to be honest I found it tougher than I thought seeing thoses other sick heart babies and parents half asleep in the waiting room waiting to hear how their baby was doing was close to unbareable. But you can really see the amazing care that theses babies/ kids and their families recieve and that's very comforting. Anyways there was so much information but that's the main stuff. He looks otherwise healthy so that's great!
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Saturday, September 3, 2011
Limbo
Limbo....That's where I am... and that's where I will stay most likely until my baby boy arrives.
It's fun to buy baby clothes right?!... Yes and No.. I can't stop thinking.. when will he be able to wear this? How much is he going to weigh when he gets out of the hospital? Is this going to bother his incision/scar? I still get excited it's just mixed with worry.
I also am counting down the days until I go to Toronto. So many questions that hopefully will have answers. The thing I have realized every appt I get more info I then have questions. I'm guessing they will tell me when about he will be born and also when I have to come down to Toronto and "camp out" until he is born. Those are my main questions right know I really would like to know because I do have 2 small children and I need to have a good plan.
On a related note I saw my MFM doctor the other day. It's so strange going from a Midwife to OB to High risk OB everything is so impersonal. It's just not me. But this is what has to be done so I'll do it. Of course they changed my due date.. by 9 days so I am now due Dec 1st... there goes my Dec baby :( I know I'm strange I would just rather keep him in there. I feel no rush for him to come out. But of course I'm so excited to meet him.
The Limbo feeling also hits when it comes down to does he have any chromosomal disorders? I worry more because I don't know what to expect not because I expect to love him any less. It's just a waiting game and I HATE waiting.
We are are going to Disney World in a week for 5 days so that's gonna be a good family vacation where I can temporally let go of all my worry and just enjoy the moment.
Overall I am doing better I feel good and I am just staying as positive as I can. I know it's hard for my husband he feels like more of an outsider I sometimes do forget that its hard for him to and he is going through it as well. He still hasn't really felt the baby move so hopefully I can make that happen soon.. because it is the best feeling in the world!
It's fun to buy baby clothes right?!... Yes and No.. I can't stop thinking.. when will he be able to wear this? How much is he going to weigh when he gets out of the hospital? Is this going to bother his incision/scar? I still get excited it's just mixed with worry.
I also am counting down the days until I go to Toronto. So many questions that hopefully will have answers. The thing I have realized every appt I get more info I then have questions. I'm guessing they will tell me when about he will be born and also when I have to come down to Toronto and "camp out" until he is born. Those are my main questions right know I really would like to know because I do have 2 small children and I need to have a good plan.
On a related note I saw my MFM doctor the other day. It's so strange going from a Midwife to OB to High risk OB everything is so impersonal. It's just not me. But this is what has to be done so I'll do it. Of course they changed my due date.. by 9 days so I am now due Dec 1st... there goes my Dec baby :( I know I'm strange I would just rather keep him in there. I feel no rush for him to come out. But of course I'm so excited to meet him.
The Limbo feeling also hits when it comes down to does he have any chromosomal disorders? I worry more because I don't know what to expect not because I expect to love him any less. It's just a waiting game and I HATE waiting.
We are are going to Disney World in a week for 5 days so that's gonna be a good family vacation where I can temporally let go of all my worry and just enjoy the moment.
Overall I am doing better I feel good and I am just staying as positive as I can. I know it's hard for my husband he feels like more of an outsider I sometimes do forget that its hard for him to and he is going through it as well. He still hasn't really felt the baby move so hopefully I can make that happen soon.. because it is the best feeling in the world!
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