Limbo

Limbo....That's where I am... and that's where I will stay most likely until my baby boy arrives.
It's fun to buy baby clothes right?!... Yes and No.. I can't stop thinking.. when will he be able to wear this?  How much is he going to weigh when he gets out of the hospital? Is this going to bother his incision/scar? I still get excited it's just mixed with worry.
I also am counting down the days until I go to Toronto. So many questions that hopefully will have answers. The thing I have realized every appt I get more info I then have questions. I'm guessing they will tell me when about he will be born and also when I have to come down to Toronto and "camp out" until he is born. Those are my main questions right know  I really would like to know because I do have 2 small children and I need to have a good plan.
On a related note I saw my MFM doctor the other day. It's so strange going from a Midwife to OB to High risk OB everything is so impersonal. It's just not me. But this is what has to be done so I'll do it. Of course they changed my due date.. by 9 days so I am now due Dec 1st... there goes my Dec baby :( I know I'm strange I would just rather keep him in there. I feel no rush for him to come out. But of course I'm so excited to meet him.
The Limbo feeling also hits when it comes down to does he have any chromosomal disorders? I worry more because I don't know what to expect not because I expect to love him any less. It's just a waiting game and I HATE waiting.
We are are going to Disney World in a week for 5 days so that's gonna be a good family vacation where I can temporally  let go of all my worry and just enjoy the moment.
Overall I am doing better I feel good and I am just staying as positive as I can. I know it's hard for my husband he feels like more of an outsider I sometimes do forget that its hard for him to and he is going through it as well. He still hasn't really felt the baby move so hopefully I can make that happen soon.. because it is the best feeling in the world!